Gospel singer, Shola Allyson has shared her sexual assault stories as a child growing up.
Triggered by Busola Dakolo’s recent rape allegation against Pastor Fatoyinbo, the gospel singer said, ‘I was abused a lot. Different ways at different stages. I almost got used to it. I am still healing. because I speak ! It hurts but I speak’.
The singer said she paid a visit to her mum to relive some of her childhood sexual abuse encounters and here’s what she wrote;
I was at my Mother’s today… There had been issues, since my childhood. But that story, for another time… So, I was asking her questions, out of pain.. Then, this conversation below took place:
Me: “Do you know that your cousin, when you left me at shdgrigofn, molested me?” I was in primary school. Over 30 years ago… I remember everything clearly… I was confused. What would I say? How would I say it?
Her: Eyes wide!
Me: “Do you know that Mr. Thshdudidj nearly raped me? The one that used to come to your shop…” Her: Eyes wider, mouth agape, “why didn’t you tell me?” Me: “Tell you? How? When there was no connection and it showed you didn’t like me? Kò possible nao!” Me: “That man that used to come and take beer and peppersoup in your shop, after I served him one day, brought out his penis that I should play with.” I was like 14-15. I ran away from the shop. You didn’t bother to ask why, you only punished me by depriving me of food for days because, “that’s where you get money from.” Her: No words
Me: “Do you remember that time when….” And so on
Her: No words, looking what-do-I-say kind of. I love her!
We talked about other things… I felt a lot better. The anger I’d been feeling for days subsided… I’m still healing. I was abused a lot. Different ways at different stages. I almost got used to it. I am still healing. Because I SPEAK! It hurts but I SPEAK!
This is my story. This is my song. Told in this way I choose. Sung in this form I deem fit. But I SPEAK! For the sake of my kind, who have been made “sick” by abuse of all sorts. Not for you? Please move on. I’m not begging for “fanhood”! It is not only for Busola’s sake that we are doing this. It is for our women, our daughters, our sons, our future! She murdered her privacy to SPEAK. She risked it all… Yes, I believe her. You won’t listen to my music again? If it is because of this, it’s ok. I wish you well. But you will be replaced by millions others from here, from distant shores and islands! Where I’m going is far. Everything in Creation backs me up as I stand and SPEAK for the TRUTH, only.
SPEAK, Child, therefrom your healing begins!